Woah, Woah, Woah, Woah Those Wildwood Days!

My daughter is going to the shore tomorrow with the other side of her family for the week.  I won't see my princess until Thursday.  I love the shore, especially Wildwood!  I've been going to this barrier island in New Jersey for as long as I can remember.  It is a big tourist spot for us Philly people, Canadians, and one other place that I forget where.  They have the best rides!  All the best rides are here (minus the awesome Haunted House and Haunted Boats and the Golden Nugget!) - the Great Nor'Easter, the Sea Serpent, the Great White, the Flitzer, the log flume...I could go on and on!  And the beach!  It's big but its great!  Sam's Pizza, Curley's Fries, Douglass Fudge!  My stomach growled just thinking about all that.  I'm thinking about it so much, I can smell it - the ocean and beach and food.  I just want to go down tomorrow, go to sleep on the beach for a little bit (lathered up in baby oil - don't lecture me about suncreen!), wake up and clean off then take a walk on the 2-mile boardwalk, eat, and go on rides!  I love it so much down there!  I would definitely move there.  It's great!  Oh, and "Watch the TramCar please!"

Avenged Sevenfold - Seize the Day

This is such an amazing song and video.  I cry though every time I see it.  Seize the day because you never know what's going to happen in life.

Tastykakes!

If you are fortunate enough to live in Philly or it's surrounding areas, you are fortunate enough to have experienced the delicious taste of Tastykakes (I sound like a commercial - talk about free promotion!).  If you have never had a Tastykake, I feel sorry for you.  Peanut Butter Tandy Kakes, Jelly Krimpets, Tasty Klair Pie.  They just came out with a limited edition pie, Pineapple and Cheese (basically a gooey, delicious pineapple cheesecake).  I remember when the krimpets actually had jelly in them and the tandy kakes had a lot of peanut butter.  Definitely skimp now but still delicious, especially the tandy kakes, my favorite.  What I'm really pissed about though is the fact that they don't make Tasty Klair Pies in the summer.  I'm dying for one right now!

How To Beat the Summer Heat

We are having our worst heatwave of the summer thus far in Philly.  This weekend, temperatures are expected to exceed 100 degrees.  I normally love the heat but this summer, I'm just not feeling it.  Maybe it's because I've been stuck in a cold office the whole season and haven't gotten to enjoy a single day in the sun (hence my pale ass white skin which is usually a nice bronze by this time of year).  Here's some tips on surviving through these desert-like conditions.  (This website also has some interesting ideas: Top Ten Ways To Beat the Summer Heat)

• Go swimming - or if you live here and are ghetto, turn the fire hydrant on.  Avoid public pools that are likely to be filled with a bunch of kids' piss.
• Enjoy some water ice - if you don't live in Philly, this sounds like a contradiction: water and ice?  Think if it as what other places call Italian ice, only real, freshly scooped Philly water ice is two hundred times better than those little frozen containers you buy at the supermarket
• Buy one of those spray bottles with the battery-operated fan (I could think of something better to use those batteries in though...)
• Walk around the mall - free air conditioner
• Sit under the air conditioner in your home.  Better yet, turn the AC on full blast and work up a sweat getting randy in bed
• Sit outside and work on your tan but keep your feet in a bucket of cold water.  Granted, in heat like this you will probably have to change the water every ten minutes or so or it may just boil up on you, turning your feet into boiled hot dogs
• Go to a museum - they can be fun (and I'm sure perverts like me could think of a way to make a museum trip even more fun!)

Stay cool everyone!  Add your own tips to avoid heat exhaustion like poor Doc Halladay did in the Phillies game in Chicago yesterday!

I Will Never Hold You, Kiss You, or Hug You, But I Will Always Love You

To the little one that I just lost and will never get a chance to hold, kiss, hug, see their smile, or hear their laugh.

What Makes A Mother?
Author Unknown
I thought of you and closed my eyes and prayed to God today.
I asked, "What makes a mother?" and I know I heard Him say,
A mother has a baby, this we know is true,
But God, can you be a mother when your baby's not with you?
Yes you can, He replied, with confidence in His voice
I give many women babies, when they leave is not their choice
Some I send for a lifetime, others for a day,
And some I send to feel your womb, but there's no need to stay
I just don't understand this, Lord, I want my baby here!
He took a breath and cleared His throat and then I saw a tear,
I wish that I could show you what your child is doing today,
If you could see your child smile with the other children and say,
"We go to earth to learn our lessons of love and life and fear,
My mommy loved me oh so much, I got to come straight here
I feel so lucky to have a mom who had so much love for me,
I learned my lessons very quickly, my mommy set me free,
I miss my mommy oh so much, but I visit her each day,
When she goes to sleep, on her pillow is where I lay,
I stroke her hair, and kiss her cheek, and whisper in her ear,
'Mommy, don't be sad today, I'm your baby and I'm here.' "
So you see, my dear sweet one, your child is okay,
Your baby is here in my home, and this is where they'll stay.
Your baby will wait for you with me, until your lesson's through,
And on the day I call you home, they'll be at the gate for you
So now you know what makes a mother
It's the feeling in your heart,
It's the love you had so much of, right from the very start
Though some on earth may not realize until their time is done,
Remember all the love you have,
And you are a special mom.

This is a beautiful poem.  It hurts so much to lose the life that is growing inside you.  My niece asked me today if my baby was out of my tummy and I cried instantly.  She doesn't understand, she's only four.  My mom told her that we don't talk about things like that.  I don't know how I'm going to get over this.  I have my beautiful two-year-old daughter and I wanted her to be a big sister.  She would have been good at it.  I always say that everything happens for a reason.  The only thing I ponder is what's the reason for this?  RIP dear one, I will always love you.

A Sad Goodbye

I found out some bad news on Friday.  It devastated me.  I had an ultrasound to get the viability and estimated dates.  Unfortunately, I found out that I miscarried.

Christmas in July

Lots of people could use condoms.  Or cookies.  You're probably thinking, "What the fuck?! It's July!"  It's never too early to start getting ready for Christmas.  Shit, I'd start getting ready for it in January if I had the energy to.  I like to start in the summer.  I have a nice sized family so why am I going to wait until December?  I did that last year - BIG fucking mistake!  For anyone who wants to start, here is a list of small things for stockings that you can spend your hard-earned money on that you can buy throughout the year and stash away in a shoebox until the big December 25 comes.  Is it for a guy or a girl?  A kid or an adult?  Use your best judgment and figure it out for yourself.  Did I miss anything?

Address/date book
Bath salts and spa items
Book embosser
Bookmark
Candles
Cards
Chocolate, candy, cookies
Gift cards
Ornaments
Picture frames
Lip gloss, other makeup
Nail polish
Nail files, clippers
Necklaces, bracelets
Hair stuff
Body wash, lotion
Lottery tickets
Homemade coupon book
Bubble bath
Tylenol
Hand sanitizer
Gum
Stickers
Name magnets, keychains
Cookie cutters
Glow sticks
Gum
Lube
Condoms
Pocket Vibrators
Stamps

Go ahead and stuff those stockings then hang 'em to dry!

Steak Butter

By the way, just felt like writing this.  An awesome topping for steak, especially a New York Strip?  Melt down a stick of butter in the microwave then mix in seasons of your choice - garlic powder, onion powder, pepper, Cajun seasoning.  Play around with it.  Then put it in the fridge until the butter hardens up again.  When ready to serve, use a mini ice-cream scooper (and I mean mini) and place it on top of your hot steak.  Delicious.  Dammit, now I want some steak...

The Road to Success is Always Under Construction

I'm hungry and I have to pee but I'm too lazy to get up and go downstairs to go to the bathroom and to the kitchen.  Hell, who wants to walk back up two flights of stairs anyway?!  It's 2:30 AM and I'm still awake - nothing new.  I was pretty tired earlier but my daughter decided not to go to bed (again) and was up until almost 1.  Fun.  Every time I want to go to bed at a reasonable hour and every time I have to wake up early she does this.  I think she does it on purpose.  I have a therapy appointment at 10 then an ultrasound scheduled for 12 and after that, I have to go to CCIS to take care of my child care stuff.  Jimmy and I are taking the babes to the zoo afterwards, not that she deserves it after tonight.  Terrible Twos?  She hit those over a year ago, when she turned one.

I know it's only July (only?!) but the holidays are coming!  Eek!  At least I'll only be 7 months pregnant then and won't have to worry about buying gifts for another child until next year.  My mom told me my whole life that time flies as you get older.  I never believed her.  At least I started to get ahead.  Got my daughter, niece, and nephew each a cute little suitcase.  I got the girls Disney princess and my nephew Cars (it's actually shaped like a car!).  I put together a stocking stuffer list since that is so easy to do for everyone and it's always good to have some extras for those last-minute gifts that you forgot (or unexpected guests).  Start buying more stuff with my next pay...or maybe the one after since my next one is going to completely suck.

I wanna make some brownies.  But it's 2:35 in the morning so I think I'll pass on that.

Due date!  February 26.  It's so fucking far!  No alcohol for me on New Years.  Boo!  St. Paddy's Day, I'll really be looking forward to you!

I want some Cherry Coke but it's all gone.  Maybe I will take that trip downstairs.  The hunger passed but I'm fucking thirsty!!  Well, better go before I piss myself.